Today I opened my mouth – and I should not have. I let anger and frustration direct my actions and in the process I jeopardized not only my testimony, my effectiveness for the Lord but also the reputation of His people.
What seemed so satisfactory in the heat of the moment was, in fact, absolutely not the right thing to do.
As the day progressed, the knot in my stomach grew and the tears welled in my eyes. I want so much to bring glory to the Lord and because of my pride I made a bad choice.
Eventually, I gave in to God and to what He was making so clear I needed to do. I was ashamed and embarrassed but I needed to apologize. Not only to the person to whom my actions were directed but also to all those who were impacted.
It is so easy for me to lose sight of why I am doing what I am and focus instead on the results that I expect to see.
With Paul I cry,
1 Timothy 1:14-16
15 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. 16 But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life.
I am so thankful that God’s love is even greater than my tongue.